fishy products

do it to it!

2011-02-14T00:42:00.000-05:00

I've been whining for it to be warmer again so I don't have to deal with static-y hair and layers of clothing. But now that it's warmer, it gives me no more excuse to not go back to my workout routine. The winter's hibernation was SO comfortable! Eating whatever the hell I wanted was great while it lasted. But I guess the summer dog days will be my motivation. I cant way to:

GET to the beach and see old men in nude colored speedos attempting to run on the beach.

TANNING poolside with someone shooting freezing water on me with a super soaker.

EATING the seven birthday cakes my one cousin will get during his five different birthday parties.

WASHING my car from bird poop.

Honest to god, this is my favorite season :)

99 bottles of beer on the wall...

2011-02-08T01:18:00.000-05:00

so...i'm making beer...at home. my other half is making wine, so why the repeat? making beer takes several things. 1. money 2. a beer kit 3. muscles. i never thought a beer kit would have been so expensive, but i got two sets of hops, two different liquid malts and three packets of dry malt some books, plastic buckets, a glass carboy, and a ton of other things.

so when i first started with the kit, i decided to do it upstairs in the hallway. the instructions say that it should be in a temp that was around 68-70 degrees and me, thinking the hallway would be cool enough, left it there for the first 24 hours. came home from work the second day and found it like, bubbling out of the sides of the plastic lid, which was put on very tightly in my opinion because i actually sat on it to close it. started to take the anti-lock off of it (a thing that lets bubbles escape out of the jar) which was already filled with other things than water and it exploded and began raining its poop on me!!! it was everywhere. on the stairs, on the landing, in my HAIR. it smelled like someone had thrown up and it looked like ten thousand kids had really dirty noses and picked them all at once around me. i determined after much panic, that it must have been too hot upstairs and it was driving the yeast crazy. so i used my muscles and moved the 6 gallons of beer & co down the damn stairs and in the kitchen. thought it was going to be good. nope. this time the entire lid popped off and shot the anti-lock somewhere and more poop scattered but on the wall this time. but i wasn't home, and my aunt had to clean up. hehehe. not funny, but sorta kinda. now it's at the sitting-waiting stage. four weeks to be exact.

stinky, stinky, stinky

2010-09-22T18:32:00.000-04:00

so i've noticed that these new annoying bugs have been bombarding my window screen.

these are called stink bugs and they are super annoying. several have successfully escaped into my room and freaked me out with a perfect landing in my hair. and since they do nothing but obscure my window view of my trees, i wanted to see what the deal is with these things!!!!

i swear i haven't seen these damn things last year so i googled them and found that they are from china. great. i understand we get a lot of things from china, but c'mon. bugs now too?? i can do without, chinese government.

so apparently you can't kill these suckers with regular pesticides like bombs and if you do try and kill them they emit a stink like skunks do.

on the flip side, vacuums and they don't have mouths and poison so they can't kill you! most they'll do is maybe suck on you. also, in vietnam, these things are eaten as crunchy snacks. so, maybe this will be our new american cuisine? [cue the gag reflex]

growing up

2010-07-30T22:45:00.000-04:00

i remember in the first couple of posts i had published for this blog, i had listed a human being's rough timeline of the major points in life. and through that, it was really obvious that life occurs in stages, some unpleasant (being 13 and the best thing was that you could now sign up for facebook) and some pleasant (age 21 - you can smoke, drink, gamble, go to the club, whatever floated your boat) things.

undeniably, i am in my own phase right now, whether or not my "busy" life can mask it. today i found out a close friend got engaged. and it's exactly at these moments in time when you can't really say, "what? i thought we were still 18." not that people don't get married/engaged at 18, but at my 18, i was having fun in school and still floating off somewhere.
but not everyone around me, i've noticed, at my age really notices the glaring signs that are telling you, you're getting older. grow up.

the first telling sign is facebook. sure you might get 300+ updates a day or every hour or whatever facebook's push speed is, but if you scroll down and you find little hearts here and there, it means someone's either in a relationship, got engaged, or got married. probably the latter two in our day and stage (and you probably start hearing yourself talk like an old person...). secondly, you start day dreaming with friends (and even just by yourself) even more about getting married and having babies, if there was ever such a thing for girls!! and then comes that last and final stage where i think shows that you're really in trouble, you start wondering when its going to be your turn to post on facebook that, (__person__) is engaged to (__person__) and then for no apparent reason you start getting angry at your other half wondering why the hell he hasn't been as romantic as so-and-so's boyfriend (but all this is kaput if you don't have a boyfriend to begin with, sorry to say).

its sad how fast life moves on without you. first thing, you find yourself yanked out of a warm liquid womb. then you're somewhere on the road trying to learn to drive the right way. then you're going to college and living the life. or so you thought until you get married and find your kids a pain in the butt. then you realize you're up there watching people cry over your wooden casket because you went away.

the story of life

2010-06-25T13:02:00.001-04:00

three words: i want one

2010-06-23T23:38:00.001-04:00

i'm sitting in the car with my grandma today and she asks me to take her to the hair salon, revealing a little secret at the same time.

Gma: i got yelled at last time since i asked your aunt to pick me up from the salon that time.

me: why?

Gma: because she (meaning boss lady) said that if i take the recreational bus there, i have to take it back.

me: well, yeah. they're responsible for you.

Gma: yeah. i wanted to take the bus to the hair salon today since the lady who yelled at me last time is going into the hospital for a surgery. it's her daughter on duty today and she's not as smart.

trust me. my eye brows were raised, but in an amused way. she didn't end up doing it by the way since i had a last minute dentist appointment that she accompanied me to. i love it.

2010-05-28T17:54:00.003-04:00

since i've graduated, the days have been good to me. don't get me wrong, job hunting is a full time job in and of itself but, the results are worth it. and sometimes when the results aren't as worth it, you've got to find some other stress-reliever outlets, and i really find that planting can do that for me.
so i've been planting with my other half lately and being the dork that i am, i feel the need to name our little patch of farm. but when i use our initials i get these really weird (to me) inklings in my head. if i use BK i think of burger king and KB reminds me of KB Toys. BCKW makes me think of bac-kaw! - you know, like a chicken. so for now, i've decided to let that go.
but other than having the problem of naming the real farm, we've had something else. a bear - we nicknamed the thing, bear. i think it's a gopher. i don't really know, i'm not the one who spots it every afternoon chomping on our flowers. so we've been looking online for ways to get rid of this bear and some of the ones that i've come across are really just weird.

TIP one:
stick a piece of gum in the hole. but they didn't say what kind of gum. so what if i put a fruity gum like that multilayer trident gum that people want to get paid with. heck, if people were choosing to feed me tasty gum i'd come back and eat it every day. i wouldn't mind some big red either.

TIP two:
bring a barn owl into your garden. at first when i saw this tip, i wondered where in the world you could buy barn owls. after all, we're not in harry potter world. but apparently you're supposed to attract them to your garden. by doing that, you'd have to bring in little garden snakes, mice/rats, birds, whatever else owls like to eat. and we were just thinking, we'll have enough animals by the time we lure the owl to the garden to make our own zoo...forget about the garden at that point!

TIP three:
use pest control. i understand that pest control can probably kill the gopher. but it can possibly kill the dog or any other domesticated animal. and it can kill us. so, never mind with this one.

TIP four:
dig trenches that are 18 to 24 inches deep then place hardware cloth in them. do they know how much digging you'd have to do to get to 18 to 24 inches?? considering that most normal people are usually using shovels and not heavy duty machinery. and what's to say that i can think like a gopher and predict that he'll dig where i've put my trench? i think at that rate, that trench will become where i will lay, thank you very much.

i personally think the strawberries have gotten to this size because they aren't juicy and red enough for the darn bear.

2010-05-20T19:18:00.003-04:00

i was taking a nature hike with my mother the other day and she was, you know, catching her breath and trying to talk to me at the same time. typical. so she starts talking about how young people (that's us) are now such bums and no one wants to get off their couches to do exercise. and she finally touches on someone specific in my life and says:

mom: [friend] is very athletic. he looks good.

i nod. not really knowing what else to say. i just want to keep walking and get out of the forest. i felt like i was on the set of LOST. but, she keeps talking...

mom: you know, i bet you [friend] can walk and run like a horse.

me: ...i don't know what that means.

2010-05-18T08:06:00.002-04:00

no inspiration? yeah...that was pretty much the reason for the hiatus of this blog :) or rather, honestly, a lack of motivation to write. haha, but i'm trying.

so, the newest thing i've learned since like, two days ago, is that there are multiple meanings to the word 'farmer's market.' that's right. when i thought it was universal, it wasn't.

farmer's market one

scenario: various vendors of vegetables, fruits, flowers, jams, honey, etc. it's essentially a place where you can buy things for that night's dinner or the next morning's bread and jam. it's also a place where you can taste the freshest fruits and vegetables of that day's harvest from the farmers.

diagnosis: this is what i think of when you tell me farmer's market. nothing else.

farmer's market two

scenario: various vendors along a street with a mix of fruits, vegetables, and homemade craft items or scary looking dolls. this is where your mother bought your aunt that 'i-love-my-sister' picture frame with someone else's picture in it, or where your sister is begging your mother for that tacky looking bracelet made out of rocks someone found on the floor from texas.

diagnosis: this is definitely a flea market to me. i don't know why it's named 'flea' instead of 'flee' because it would make more sense to me that these people would be trying to flee the cops because you know that someone in there somewhere is selling something someone else stole.

farmer's market three

scenario: blow up castles, slides, obstacle courses crowd one end of the street and down the other end of the street are vendors that specialize in face painting, little knick-knacks someone definitely saved from countless mcdonald's kid's meal toys, popcorn, worms in dirt, an officer and his buddy teaching how to ride a bike with a helmet, etc. this place is usually swarmed with kids who are 9 and below with their parents. you're bound to hear a parent scream 'no shoes in the castle!!!'

diagnosis: i was recently tricked into going to this so called farmer's market, which prompted this post. this is not a farmer's market. this is a carnival, or something close to it. i'm 22. i don't want my face painted and i don't want a reflective snap on bracelet, which my mom actually got for me. it's bright yellow.

2009-09-25T11:07:00.000-04:00

who would have thunketh that furnishing your bedroom would be SO complicated? there's all these different terms that i had no idea existed. it's like--housewive language. before school started, i had gotten a queen sized inflatable mattress (don't ask). then of course i would have had to get sheets for it. so, i go sheet shopping. as i was looking through, i realized that each package came with a fitted sheet, flat sheet, and usually two pillow cases--one if you get a twin sized. flat sheet? really? i get that it's flat.

as if two pillowcases weren't enough, you then had to shop for shams. unlike fitted sheet, you can't really tell what the heck a sham is by it's name. forget about context clues, if you just randomly said sham to me, i would have thought it was a kitchen appliance.

then there are duvets. and bedspreads. and quilts. and down. and down alternative. WHY is it that only the word "duvet" sound so french and confusing and WHY must you have a duvet for your down, or your down alternative, if you're going to have a bedspread or even a quilt? you don't need that many on top of you. you'd suffocate. and what exactly does "alternative" mean? and because i might be allergic to down feathers (which i don't even know what that's made out of), i would have to go for the alternative down...which to me might mean plastic.

then you've got that damn thing that hangs off the box spring, or spring box, or mattress spring, or whatever, so that your bed's legs don't show. who the fack cares?! it's not like it's a woman. get me the no hassle bed frames with no ugly metal rolling legs. and can't i just get a blanket, a mattress sheet, and two pillowcases??

don't even get me started on "window treatments." it needs it's own freakin doctor.

baconator

2009-09-10T22:34:00.000-04:00

i was cooking the other morning--six strips of bacon, to be exact--and while i was cooking, i didn't notice anything wrong all about me...i was happy, at 8AM making breakfast for my boyfriend...when all of a sudden he comes out and says that he thinks my bacon's done. and i'm just standing there thinking, how do you know? you didn't even come look at it!

.......they were ready.......a little too ready, and i didn't realize it until my apartment's fire alarm told me so. while that damn alarm was ringing me deaf, i was hoping on my life that this alarm didn't set off the rest of the alarms in the building. could you imagine?! everyone outside on the campus lawn because i was making six strips of bacon?! i would have dug myself a hole out there and buried myself in it.

so what could i do? i scrambled downstairs to the lobby to tell the security guards but before i could step an inch from the elevator, i saw a police officer heading my way and for some reason, a ridiculous grin came across my face and he looks at me and says:

"406, right?"

i wanted to say no, but of course i admitted it. i tried to explain myself, but he smiled and said that even shower smoke can set off the alarms because they were so sensitive. honestly, that did make me feel much better about myself. at least i didn't walk out of the shower and have the alarm go off on me. that's worse than bacon, i think.

so what did i learn from cooking bacon at school?

never to cook bacon on high.

or maybe never cook bacon at all.

i'll george-foreman them.

it's supposed to quack, not snap

2009-07-19T20:31:00.002-04:00

never fear, my blogger is here

well actually, i knew it was here all along, but i just never felt like writing in it. i've been having some pretty bad writer's block lately and i haven't been able to summon up enough stuff to place into a paragraph and make it interesting for you to read...until yesterday.

being a fellow female, i can safely say that there is definitely one type of doctor that us ladies fear [dread] to see--the gynecologist. there are so many things that are just awkward about this clinical visit that can make any person squirmy. firstly, that age-old question of whether or not socks should be worn while you go visit your doctor. i guess this one is just for consideration of the doctor since the doctor is so close to your feet...but then again, that's the last thing your doctor's face should be worried about being so close to. secondly, the thought of having some foreign metal object being inserted and flexed like some duck's bill does not make a girl any more comfortable than she might be with her legs supported by an unfriendly stirrup. thirdly, not only is it plenty awkward to have a stranger look up your privates and scoop things out for lab tests, it's unfriendly when their cold hands reach up to give your girls an exam.

however uncomfortable this doctor's visit may cause us ladies to be, it's something we have to go through with; it's just a facet of being a woman. and even though this is something we all eventually have to deal with, there is one thing [it's a personal opinion] that i would like to be in control of: in my mind, a gynecologist is shortened to gyno for a reason--"guy-no" a.k.a "no-guy"

i don't think any right man will raise his hand eagerly in medical school saying he's found his one true passion in life and that's to look at vaginas all day long. not saying that it's a sexual thing, but i just think that it takes a woman to know a woman...it makes life easier without having to explain it to some man who's studied it all from a text book.

personalized love song

2009-06-21T17:14:00.001-04:00

all the boys say: "baby, i see your future, and it's tied to mine {1}" or something along those lines which made me roll my eyes because "this is a crazy world" and "its hard to know who's on your side. {2}" every time another one came along, i couldn't help but say "boy, don't try to front," because "i know just what you are -- a womanizer. {3}" even my daddy says so. but then "you c[a]me to me on a summer breeze. {4}" then i realized that all i needed to do was "start a new fashion and wear my heart on my sleeve. {5}" and once we began, i've never felt better. i felt like "cinderella at the ball {6}" "i feel so foolish" that "i never noticed. i'm thinking about you every day, dreaming about you every night. {7}" but where were you when i thought i needed someone the most? "lost and insecure, you found me" you were "just a little late," but "you found me, you found me. {8}" "we got it together, didn't we? {9}" i never thought i'd mind getting lost...not having directions. but if we do, "we can talk about the road behind; how getting lost is not a waste of time. {10}" so hold my hand, while we make all different kinds of plans. promise me that "whatever comes our way, we'll see it through. {11}" "it's incredible that someone so unforgettable, {12}" will now help me make my most unforgettable moments.

maybe all those love songs do make sense.

1. 98 degrees - true to your heart

2. leona lewis - here i am

3. britany spears - womanizer

4. the beegees - how deep is your love

5. carrie underwood - ever ever after

6. carrie underwood - crazy dreams

7. bonnie raitt - something to talk about

8. the fray - you found me

9. barry white - my first, my last, my everything

10. jack johnson - what you thought you need

11. michael buble - everything

12. nat king & natalie cole - unforgettable

2009-06-15T21:19:00.000-04:00

"im an evil genius"

mate me auto

2009-06-08T20:53:00.001-04:00

i hate automatic toilets.

i hate it when they flush on their own because:

1) they always splash me with

flecks of toilet water

2) scares the crap out of me

when i least expect it

and 3) who said i was done?!

automatic-anything bugs the crap out of me because quite frankly, they don't make any sense. great, you've got the automatic soap dispensers that squirts out smelly, skin drying soap; you've got the automatic water dispenser that always is either too hot, too cold, or too strong; then you've got the automatic hand dryer which never seems to work better than if you were to blow dry your hands with your own mouth; and of course, the automatic toilet as i have mentioned afore.

so what is the problem?

what happens when you leave? you touch the germ-ridden door handle and you are now infested with all the germs that you so carefully tried to avoid previously with all that automatic crap.

** i know there are exceptions, like the automatic doors for the handicap, but don't be smart with me because you know this is the majority of the time--smartasses--agree with it.

fish are not friends

2009-06-03T21:40:00.001-04:00

there are some things that being a girl, you should learn from your fathers or your husbands, or your brothers. or whatever. a male. things for your cars: like how to change the oil, how to change the tires, etc; things like sports lingo so you know what the heck other people are saying...it's a great conversation starter sometimes too. my dad has pretty much taught me most of all of these things [i swear he has, i just haven't retained most of it] and he taught me several more today...and yesterday.
see, i'm going fishing with my dad this weekend in our usual spot in long island. every year during the summer, we have to go at least twice, and just during his last trip, he had brought all his fishing rods and doodads back with him to hong kong. so we went shopping for rods, fish bait, and fishing line to use for this weekend's trip. this is my first trip to the fishing section since i've never had a reason to go there...and it was definitely interesting to learn some of these things.

firstly, dick's sporting goods' website is NOT dicks.com. i was expecting someone famous like tiger woods on the front brandishing nike's logo or something, but, no...there was this guy, brandishing something else...

second, fish gutters are not called mini machetes no matter how much they may look like one. i guarantee you the old man at the fishing section will either a) look at you funny b) laugh at you c) do a combination of both, if you say something like that.

thirdly, fishing lines have weight limits and it's not okay to try and test them out by pulling on them. i figured, hey, if a shark can pull on it and it still won't snap, then maybe i can pull on it. sure, but not the lines made for little fish like porkfish. those will snap if you pull on it then you'll have to buy the entire roll.

fourth, fish baits are real pretty. some are real colorful and glittery and have waggling tails, but others are seriously vomit worthy. the ones stored in the small fridge in a white box are definitely not the pretty glitter ones. those move on their own and some of them even have teeth.

fifthly, to test fishing rods, you're supposed to sort of flick it out and watch the way it bounces back and watch the vibration levels. then you're supposed to grip the rod and then use the floor to bend it to see if it'll resist, mimicking a fish's strength when it's pulling away from you with the hook in it's mouth. if the rod feels like it has good resistance, then you should stop and let go. if it doesn't, it doesn't mean keep bending. because they WILL bend, just like regular metal. then you'll most likely have to buy that too.

and lastly, fish finders are not battery chargers. some of the cheaper ones may look like the contraptions that we used to stick in potatoes to generate electricity for the light bulb in like, forth grade, but that's not what they are. and nor are the more expensive ones which look like the Garmin GPS systems or a mini TV.

back to reality

2009-05-30T21:01:00.001-04:00

easy quietness || no words

oddball out

2009-04-27T11:10:00.000-04:00

4 things that i don't quite understand:

ONE
i don't know why toy makers make toys to annoy the adults. it's really not for the children's amusement because you know that when that damn elmo is giggling for the millionth time within five minutes in that obnoxious nasal tone, that the person who made it is surely snickering in his office to know that you're almost to your boiling point while he's sitting on his nice leather office chair, eating filet mignon for lunch that's all paid for by you.

TWO
i don't get how they have telephone lines for the hearing impaired. [this is an honest-to-god curiosity of mine--not out of ignorance] i asked my cousin a question regarding that the other day and she said, 'maybe they talk really loud,' which did seem plausible, and then i wondered if they sent text messages if you requested that line...but then i got to thinking, not everyone only uses their cell phones like i do. a lot of people still use landlines which don't have screens for text messages...

THREE
i love sports, and i participate them, but if you ever sit down and think about the concept of sports, i swear, you'll ask yourself why you're that stupid. the concept of sports--any sport--is basically you going after something to fetch it, but it was you who threw it. for example, golf. you hit it, and then you have to go get it, and then hit it again. it's a lame sport, really. nothing is more retarded than going, 'oh look at how far i got it!' --great. now you have to go that far to pick it back up. the only good division i can think of for golf is the driving range. i go to the driving range a lot and my only goal for the 100 something balls i buy is to hit the guy in the plastic cart below. and trust me, i have used this own theory on myself, and i really can't tell you why i still play half the sports i do.

FOUR
i don't get why we, as americans, have to try to sound smart by using foreign languages for certain things when it sounds really funny when it's translated. for example, the term 'eau de toilette' which is a type of perfume. not only is it freakin awkward for americans who don't speak french (or any other foreign language for that matter) to pronounce in our american accent, but literally translated, this perfume means water of the toilet. sounds attractive doesn't it?! you're wearing someone's ass-water for $40 a bottle. congratulations.

** this is my last post before i dive head first into my finals, but this is also the last post before i jet off to FRANCE!!! i will be in france for a week, and be sure that i will let you know how that goes when i come back :]

fishified

2009-04-22T11:55:00.001-04:00

alright, just because people keep asking, im going to share a little story as to why all my things have something to do with the word 'fish.'

once upon a time,

there was this little girl who got

thrown into the pool at age 3

and was told 'learn to swim!'

so she did.

since then she's been

swimming like no one's business.

she joined her long island high school

swim team and many people have
commented that she looked like
a fish when she swam. this girl
also happened to be a baptized
christian and we all know that
the fish has always symbolized
the christian faith. the -ed
suffix is usually added to
nouns and means having;
possessing;and
affected

by.

the end.

now turn your head to the left!

does that look like a fish?

...swimming downwards?

...with red lips?
if it doesnt, then imagine it does.

lead me home

2009-04-20T14:24:00.001-04:00

it's that time of year again!! the sun is out, the flowers are blooming, everyone is in a good mood [and if not, lets just pretend you are]. but no, i'm not saying that it's almost summer, but tis the season to be walking. most of you who know me, know that i grew up in a household of volunteers. having grown up around Kiwanis and Key Club, volunteering has been almost second nature to me. helping others get to a place where they deserve to be, whether it's just to smile for a day through chemo or helping them make a warm home for their children. no amount of money or time can ever buy this joy that comes from knowing that you helped someone along way. i promise, it's all worth it.

there have been two organizations that are especially close to my heart, and two that i participate in almost every year, whether it be walking or donating. the Avon Walk for Breast Cancer was my very first walk, and i can't begin to tell you how incredibly amazing and what an honor it was to walk amongst a group of women on a passionate mission to make some noise and raise awareness. you could have been walking for a friend, for your mother, for your sister, for your aunt, it didn't matter, everyone's goal was the same--we all walked as one. the second one that i have supported is the March of Dimes . a mother's ultimate wish is to have all her children healthy and grow up to experience what she has experienced, and each child deserves this chance. the MoD makes this happen through research, trying to find cures and to prevent premature births. there is nothing more precious than holding a healthy and happy baby.

testimonies can only show you so much. in order to know what i'm talking about, you need to go try it for yourself. that feeling--it's almost unworthy of words.

March for Babies is coming up first with an April 26th walk in Manhattan.

the Avon Walk in NY takes place on October 10-11. you can register now.

going out and making a difference doesn't always have to be participating in big walks like these and it certainly doesn't have to be donating money to organizations. the simplest way to start is always with the people around you. lend a helping hand and you will be rewarded with a smile and perhaps a thank you, but you will realize that that's enough.

*for more information about registering for the Avon Walk, go to their homepage [linked above] and look to the right. pick your city of choice and register! as for the March for Babies walk, click the link provided, and you will see the purple box in the center of the page where you can search for teams or events.*

2009-04-18T11:46:00.001-04:00

"You may drink the water, but always remember where the water comes from."

--my G-Ma

i don't normally write on the weekends because the weekends is my family time. but this weekend, i have to make a special exception.

when i arrived home last night, my dad handed me a pile of letters that were waiting for me from the week and i had gotten several from Rutgers, my university. usually, i just rip them open just for the sake of opening it but this letter was different. this letter was telling me that i had just been selected to receive the Rutgers University Alumni Association Writing Award. This award was selected by the faculty and staff members of my university; and when i found that out, the award didn't matter to me as much as knowing that my professors still thought of me after i had finished taking their class.

that quote from my grandma has always remained with me because in this simple line, it taught me the world about tradition and loyalty. my grandma has always taught me in her own funny ways, but after each time, i am blown away by this ancient looking woman who embodies all this knowledge just waiting to be discovered by anyone who would take the time to ask.

this award is as much for my professors and teachers as it is mine. without them pushing me forward and encouraging me to find inspiration within myself, i would not be where i am today with my writing and certainly not the person whom i've become today. being a person is so much more complicated than just walking the earth. a person is raised with the utmost care and love, and carries a piece of everyone else who has ever left footprints in their wake.

thank you

pants of glory

2009-04-16T12:35:00.000-04:00

so in the far left of my screen, i have my ichat turned on which in turn turns on my gchat, which is at the far right of the screen, because they’re one in the same for my ichat program and then i have my msn messenger opened as well because no one in hong kong uses ichat and then i’ve got skype up and running right next to my ichat and it’s ringing because my dad’s calling me, and then i’ve got oovoo running next to my gchat and my webcam is turned on because i’ve got five other people trying to talk to me on oovoo from canada, hong kong, the states, whatever, and that’s why i can’t stop the incessant ringing of my dad’s phone call on skype who hangs up a million times and then tries to call me again because he thinks that im just not picking up so i send him a written message but then he wants me to learn chinese so he responds in all chinese and i can’t read but maybe fifty words so i go and translate it word by word while ten other im’s are popping up from ichat, gchat, and skype asking me all different kinds of questions and expecting me to respond in two seconds after they send it and then on the far right bottom corner of my screen, an email notification pops up and says that i’ve got 50 unread emails from last night and so i open that and then another notification takes the place of the email notification and says so-and-so’s birthday is today so i head on over to facebook and say ‘HAPPY BIRTHDAY!’ before i hear a ding from my itouch telling me that someone just tweeted me a message so i open that and type with one hand on my laptop as i finger-type a response to the tweet i got and simultaneously look up and smile at the people who are now watching me intently as i multitask and try to keep each conversation in mind as they all talk over each other with someone bursting out with a ridiculous laugh somewhere and then i return to my im’s and start a conversation over boobs falling out of t-shirts with one person; how another person’s room smells like weed with another person; and then i gossip with another girl about how some girl we both know needs to learn to take a shower before my cell phone rings freaking me out of my chair and when i look at the screen i see my dad’s face flashing me a smile so i walk away from my computer after writing ‘brb’ on my im’s and i walk towards my dresser as i’m talking to my dad and move to unzip my jeans to slip on my sweats before i realize. SHIT. they’re still watching.

these instant-everything’s are meant to make your life easier to communicate with the world, but i really think it sets me back a couple of paces when something like this happens. all this anxiety comes from stuff like this; the fact that i said the wrong thing on the wrong im and that my cousin’s mother saw me half naked… on some days, i just like to turn everything off and let the world think that i’ve fallen off the ride for just one moment so i can steal a second to b.r.e.a.t.h.e

going up!

2009-04-15T13:51:00.000-04:00

i have to take an elevator daily in my life and it really surprises me that some people act like they've never ridden an elevator before! just like when you get on a plane, there are silent elevator rules that you have to go by and that you should know of if you live in this world...do us all a favor and adhere to some of them to make our lives all a little better...mmkay? O-K!

hold the door for people who are rushing towards the elevator. it is not funny when the other person gets to the elevator and it closes right on their face and you're standing there with a dumb look on your face like you had no power in holding the [<||>] button.

do not take the elevator up one flight of stairs--or even up four flights of stairs. you can do it. that applies for going down too.

if and when the elevator gets crowded, do not spread your legs apart, puff up your chest, or put your fifty pound backpack to your side, and attempt to take up more space than you really need. i can see that you might be uncomfortable that these total strangers are now in your personal space but please, we're all just trying to get to our destination as fast as we can and we would love it if we didn't have to wait another ten minutes just to be shoved out of the next elevator.

when an elevator arrives, let the other people who are already on the elevator, get out before you rush in. you are not invisible and people cannot walk through you.

don't fart in the elevator when you're alone in there, because oxygen goes into the elevator, but nothing really ever goes out until the doors open, meaning that you might have farted when it was going down from the 20th floor, but the person getting on from the 10th floor will still smell it. like i said before in my other posts, your mother is lying to you--your farts do not smell pretty.

stays true to sickness as well. no one will blame you if you get sick; it happens. but since elevators seem to get smaller and smaller each century, please don't cough on other people or sneeze a rainstorm on the person next to you. just because we don't have an immediate reaction does not mean that we didn't feel it, but that we're just trying not to be rude and spray ourselves with antibiotics.

if there is no space in the elevator for you to reach over and push the button for your floor, then say politely "11th floor, please." ten times out of ten, the person closest to the buttons will push it for you if it's not already pushed. do not reach over everybody and go push the button like no one's business. once it's lit, it's not going to make the elevator go faster if you push the button fifty times at once.

keep your voices down, especially if you're speaking another language. it's a metal box we're all standing in and much to your surprise, it might echo or amplify your voice. despite what you think, people around you are not all that interested in how you broke up with your boyfriend/girlfriend and what you ate for dinner last night and how your doctor told you that everything down there looks nice.

because its easy to be less than a palm's distance away from someone, it automatically makes it easy to see what the other person is saying through text or via email. don't do that! thats sooo obnoxious when you're being nosy in a place where you really don't have the right to be nosy. thank god most elevators are a 360° mirror nowadays. don't be fishy. we're watching...

suspense my pensée

2009-04-14T10:36:00.001-04:00

[yes, i'm in my journalism class right now--there's only three of us, but she's STILL teaching.]

we're actually watching the news in class because we have nothing better to do since no one showed up because of the rain. i sometimes wish i was that smart and think to skip class when everyone else is thinking about skipping class. but anyway, have you ever watched tv news and just wished they'd get going with giving you the actual news? especially during dinner time?

i mean, you're sitting there at dinner, ready to enjoy your roast beef or pasta or whatever you eat, and then the news comes on:

"next on the news coming up at 5:30 PM, we have found a new virus that may be present in your every day dinner! stay tuned to hear more."

so you do only what's normal and you sit and wait obediently for the following news session and you put down your fork because god knows if the news found something in roast beef or pasta.

"coming up in five minutes, the new virus found in our food. stay tuned to find out how deadly it actually is."

by now, you're probably just freaking out because this is dinner, which means that you've probably ate lunch and breakfast before and you have no idea what it could possibly be. could it be eggs? could it be bread? if milk can do evil things, then so can fruits!

"good evening, in our latest headlines tonight, a local hero is exposed when he rescues a little puppy from the gutter, trapped there since this morning. lets now head on over to jim,"

i hate it when it takes them forever to get to the actual news and by the time they actually get to it, which they happen to place at the very last minute of the half hour news, it's something stupid:

"and lastly what we have discovered may shock you...we have found that a moving virus can be found in your mouth which is then transfer to your food through your fork and back to other people in your family especially if you share! well that's it for tonight! have a good night and we'll see you tomorrow morning."

G-R-E-A-T, like that tells me the world...
this is one of the reasons why i can't be a news journalist.

ps. i made a mistake in terminology on my last post 'ohana.' the 24 "cousins" are my first cousins, and the 10 "first cousins" are my first cousins once removed. *these american terms bug the crap out of me. in chinese we all have separate titles for our male parent's siblings that are female/male, and vice versa*

ohana

2009-04-13T09:39:00.001-04:00

a lot of people comment about how large my dad's side of the family is. it's always a shocker when i tell them that i have 11 aunts and uncles, 24 cousins, and 10 first cousins. someone had once even asked me if we were part of the asian mafia--which i still find hilarious till this day.

if you think about it, there are so many things that a big family like ours could do as a whole, like, we could take over all the major professions in the world or have a birthday in every month, etc. [actually, the birthday thing in every month is already kind of true, but that's really out of our control because we can't command when we get a new member...] the one thing that seems most plausible as of now is having all the letters in the alphabet.

my cousins and i were actually counting this out over the weekend [they were on spring break and i was just bored] and found out that the only available "slots" left for us to eat the alphabet are only: F, G, I, O, Q, T, U, X, Y, and Z. the most used letter happens to be A with 8 people and the letter S and K are tied with 7, but only K has no repeats. only the letters C, H, and N have one name to it. we have 3 "jrs." and only 2 families with only 1 child, and a female cousin-in-law who spells the name "joyce" like this: joiz. as for the K names, we have kasie [me], katherine, karen, kaitlin, kayla, kent, and kenny.

you follow me so far? good. it's really not that hard to remember everyone, i swear. we all meet almost every friday so if you stick around long enough, you'll get it.

registration

2009-04-06T22:45:00.002-04:00

alright, so i just registered for classes for next semester, and it totally doesn't make sense to me.
i only have two more classes that i need to fulfill for my general requirements and major and i'm done...but I CAN'T GRADUATE YET because i don't have a total of 120 credits!!!

how DUMB is that???

it's not only stupid that they make you stay until you've got 120 credits, but do they really think we're all made out of money? it's also a waste of time to stay in school and take crap courses to fill up credit needs. for goodness sakes, i'm taking guitar classes next semester and a class on how hip hop affects today's culture. it's even sadder that these courses actually exist on a college campus...

friend: why are you taking a fiction writing workshop??

me: thats actually considered a fun course for me...

friend: are you retarded?

but the best thing about registering this time is that it only took me 5 seconds!! the last couple of times, it has literally taken me about half an hour to register for classes because our system would be so backed up. i wonder if people forgot to register [like i did] or if they were actually smart enough to fix it this year?

duck line

2009-04-06T22:09:00.001-04:00

come follow me on twitter !!!!

i dont know where we're going, but do it!

you know you want to :]

!finished!

2009-04-02T22:18:00.000-04:00

i'm finally finished!

what you'll notice that is different -

at the very top before the post is a new navigation bar. the buttons are self explanatory all you have to do is just click it.
at the very right at the top, is a new music player. these are the most current songs that i am listening to; most likely the top five on my itunes (minus any chinese songs).
the cbox and twitter have remained, but underneath the twitter is a new counter. i've always had one, but i thought i'd include you readers as to how many people have actually visited my blog as a courtesy.
all the way at the bottom left is the archive where you're welcome to go back as far as october of 2007.
next to the archive is my picture and the blogroll. blogroll is a list of all the blogs i keep track. they are listed by latest update.

hope ya'll like it :]

!construction!

2009-04-02T10:01:00.000-04:00

construction!!

im in the midst of changing up the blog. so please bare with me.

sphanks.

to be depressed

2009-04-01T14:24:00.001-04:00

ever feel like you're at the wrong place in life? like, you're sitting where you are but you know you don't belong there but someplace else; and you know in your heart where you SHOULD be, but you can't go there, or you don't know how to get there. there are moments when i love what i'm doing and i think i'm working towards what i want. i even have separate goals for this road, but then there are other moments when i doubt that this is clear to me. that this is truly what i want. at these moments, i don't know whether to tell myself i'm just dreaming or if i'm just telling myself to take a different route.

i still wish that life would be a little easier and have someone point me in the right direction and never look back. but at the same time, i know i would never allow that--to let the fun be taken out of life.

i know the "correct" path that i'm supposed to be on, the one i had picked out myself. but then there is this "off-road" that i'm yearning to try. i had once talked to a professor of mine of my off-road dreams, and she had told me to go give it a try and that my education will always be here for me to return to. if i never go try it, i will always be wondering, what if? she had no judgement of me, and i'm entirely grateful for that. her advice still resonates in me, and i think i've gotten myself nearly convinced, only except society continually revolves around me, telling me i am only wasting my time.

i know i said a whole lot and you probably still don't know what i'm saying, but that's okay. this week has been depressing for me, rendering me completely uninspired to write anything remotely interesting. so i figured, why not complain on my blog? so i did :)

i love writing for people to read.

i don't doubt that.

america processed

2009-03-27T06:06:00.001-04:00

firstly, i hope everyone's spring break was nice and even if you didn't get to go anywhere, you had time to relax.
secondly, over my break, i had bought a pair of scissors and this is where my post is derived from:

is it just me, or do americans have a really funny way of packaging their goods?

||scissors|| if you've ever bought a pair, you know what i'm talking about. it's covered in like, government plastic, which requires a scissor to open your new scissors! so if you're buying scissors for the first time, good luck.

||light bulbs|| perhaps the second most fragile thing next to a baby's head. they are packaged in THIN paper cardboard...yeah. i don't really get that logic. they really should wrap it in bubble wrap and then stick it in government plastic. seriously, not enough things are bubble wrapped around here.

||pickles|| are always packed like sardines in their jars. and by the way, sardines aren't all that packed. the saying should be changed to 'packed like pickles.' it could catch on. but anyway, there is never enough room for fingers to grab a pickle so you end up sitting there minutes at a time trying to strategically move them around in the hopes of getting ONE free while you get pickle juice all over the place.

||toilet paper|| if you're going to glue the first flap down, then don't use freakin super glue for goodness sake. it always takes me a long time to find the first flap like the toilet paper manufacturer intends to make me sit on the toilet and spin the damn roll this way and that way to find the flap. they should do it like tape. have the first flap decorated with a design or tape a big red arrow that points to the flap. it's irritating.

jibber jabber

2009-03-09T17:11:00.003-04:00

last week, i had been writing my dates as 4/3/09, 4/4/09, and 4/5/09 on all my notes. even though i consciously knew that it was march, i kept writing april...and i had no desire to go back and change it. i'm getting ahead of myself, but that's nothing out of the norm for me. maybe it's just me [because i haven't met anyone else who does this] but i think faster than i speak or write. so as i'm talking to you, my mind is already sending in the next couple of words and it always confuses the hell out of me when my mouth says something completely different because it couldn't catch up:

FRIEND: what answer did you get for that

question she gave us in class?

ME: oh, i just said that gatsby represented the

american lifestyle in the '20's which was

lavish and washing

and of course my friend only catches that last word and nothing else i had just said. i had wanted to say lavish and wealthy and that fitzgerald was washing all that dreaming out of his reader's minds--bringing them to realism. but no, all we could focus on now was the fact that i said 'washing' at the wrong time.

p.s. this is my last post before spring break. my brain doesn't ever function when i'm on break and my friends can vouch for that. don't have spring break yet? ---sorry...but i will be having fun ;]

uʍop ǝpısdn and sdrawkcab

2009-03-05T00:34:00.000-05:00

˙unɟ ɐpuıʞ ˙ʇɐ ƃuıʞool ǝɹ,noʎ ʇɐɥʍ ʇɐ ʞool puɐ ʎɹʇ llıʍ ǝldoǝd ɹǝɥʇo 'pǝǝʇuɐɹɐnƃ ˙spɹɐʍdn ǝɹɐʇs puɐ ʇǝǝɹʇs pǝpʍoɹɔ ɐ ɟo ǝlppıɯ ǝɥʇ uı puɐʇs ¿unɟ sı ǝslǝ ʇɐɥʍ ʍouʞ noʎ ¡ǝlıɯs ˙ǝldoǝd ʎddɐɥ sǝʞıl ǝuoʎɹǝʌǝ ¡uosɹǝd ʎddɐɥ ɐ ǝq ˙pooƃ ¿ou ˙ǝqʎɐɯ ˙ƃuıɯnɟ ǝq ʎlqɐqoɹd p,noʎ puɐ 'ƃuıɥƃnɐl ʎlqɐqoɹd ɯı ʇnq 'ʇı ƃuıop ǝɹ,noʎ ʎɥʍ ʍouʞ ʇ,uop ı ˙ǝɹǝɥ oʇ dn ƃuıpɐǝɹ dǝǝʞ noʎ ɟı noʎ oʇ sdoɹd ʇnq ˙sʇnoqɐpunoɹ ˙ƃuıɥʇou ɟo ɥɔunq ǝloɥʍ ɐ ǝʇoɹʍ ʇsnɾ ı ˙ʎɐs oʇ lɐıɔǝds ƃuıɥʇou ǝʌɐɥ ı ˙noʎ ɹoɟ ǝɹǝɥ ƃuıɥʇou s,ǝɹǝɥʇ ˙ʇı ɟo ʇno ƃuıɥʇou ʎlǝʇnlosqɐ ʇǝƃ puɐ ƃuıɥʇ ǝɹıʇuǝ sıɥʇ pɐǝɹ noʎ ƃuıʞɐɯ ɹoɟ ǝɯ ǝʇɐɥ ʎlqɐqoɹd p,noʎ uǝɥʇ puɐ 'ǝɥɔɐpɐǝɥ ɐ ʇǝƃ ʎlqɐqoɹd p,noʎ uǝɥʇ ˙pǝʎǝ ssoɹɔ ʇɥƃıɯ noʎ 'lnɟǝɹɐɔ ǝq ʇnq 'pǝıɹʇ ʎllɐǝɹ noʎ ɟı ʇı pɐǝɹ plnoɔ noʎ ǝɹns ɯı ˙plnoʍ ı ʍouʞ ı ¿sıɥʇ ǝʞıl ʇsod ǝloɥʍ ɐ ǝʇoɹʍ ı ɟı ǝɥɔɐpɐǝɥ ɐ noʎ ǝʌıƃ ı plnoʍ

2009-03-03T20:40:00.003-05:00

SQUISHY?!

I THINK NOT ASSHOLE

old tendencies

2009-02-25T23:38:00.002-05:00

yesterday, i was completely out of my element. my mood was just down to my ankles and i wanted to clam up. so i did. after class, i rode the train to our nearest city and just walked. i didn't really know where i wanted to go, but i ended up at a local supermarket, and i ended up going up and down the asiles for almost an hour and a half. i didn't notice it while i was doing it, but afterwards when i caught the train back to school, i felt so OLD. why the fack was i grocery shopping when i wasn't happy?? where the heck did that come from...that's what my mother does! so then i started to wonder what else i do thats supposedly beyond my age---and the results were quite frightening, to me at least.

1. like i noted before, i like to grocery shop when i get a little down. for some odd reason, it relieves my tensions. i dont have to buy anything but looking at the products makes me a little happier, but usually i end up buying food that i don't normally need. swimming used to do it for me, but now a pool is not readily available.

2. i have the urge to do full out cleaning once in a while when i have nothing else to do. i will literally go from one side of my dorm room to the other, cleaning it, which would mean wiping the drawers with sanitary wipes, vacuuming, and cleaning my sheets. when i used to have nothing to do, i used to watch tv. but now thats not as satisfying as cleaning my room until it smells like oranges.

3. i love baking when im home on the weekends. i will make a ridiculous amount of baked goods that i know no one will finish, but that doesn't stop me. i will make cakes, cupcakes, cookies, rainbow cakes, whatever, and after making it i usually don't end up eating it. i just like displaying it and watching other people eat it. before at home on the weekends, i'd go ride my bike, fix my stories, go shopping, paint my nails...but now...not so much.

4. i cut out recipes in magazines but i never cook them. i just like to collect them. i don't know why i do it, but whenever i go through any magazine and i see a recipe, i'll automatically cut it out if it sounds like something i'd eat. i also have a tendency to cut out designs that i'd like to see in my future home. who knows, maybe i'm nesting.

i'm going to stop at 4 because ya'll are probably already making fun of me. so you can just sit pretty.

bathroom woes

2009-02-23T13:25:00.005-05:00

i was in the bathroom the other day after i had watched a movie with a friend and i was getting myself nice and situated on the toilet and i reach over to grab some toilet paper and i get maybe two squares before it breaks. so i go back and try again and this time, i get one square and then i start getting annoyed. by the time it was my fifth time trying to pull the damn toilet paper out, i was coaxing it to come out...you know, pulling it out very slowly and feigning patience as my butt hangs to dry. by now i probably dont need the toilet paper. but WHAT IF the toilet paper never came out, or it ran out?? im sure there were times when you girls have just dashed into a stall and started to pee without looking over to see if there was toilet paper. then what happens?

well, i've heard of these tales before, but i've never actually done it myself, BUT ONE. and you can guess which one, cuz i ain't tellin you which one.

socks
they say that if you're seriously desperate, then you need to take off a sock [or maybe both, depending on your situation] and use it like napkins. you better pray to god that you wore clean socks that day if you ever decide to do that...

eye glass wipes
the dry cloths...im not talking about the ones lined with alcoholic cleaning stuff. can you imagine?! after that you wouldn't be only having toilet paper issues...

tampons/pads
only if you happen to be that lucky to have a spare lying in your purse somewhere, but really, if you were that lucky, then you would have had toilet paper

butt hang
this one just calls for you to sit there for like, fifteen minutes and let it air dry. simple, sanitary, but just a tad embarrassing if there's people outside waiting for your stall because you're not exactly doing number two either: "sorry! im waiting for my pee to dry!"

post-its
people carry these around and surprisingly, paper is a good soaker-upper. granted it'll take a couple of swipes, but you'll get there. just remember not to use the sticky side.

im telling you, going abroad as a foreigner teaches you many things, and one of those things is to bring your own tissues. in hong kong, they don't give you napkins so you bring your own. depending on the toilet and the place the toilet is located, they'll have tissue, but mostly, they won't. so you bring your own. i've learned that much...however, there was this one time i had menthol nose tissues with me...it felt breezy, not gonna lie.

caught in the act!

2009-02-18T14:59:00.000-05:00

ever stand next to someone for a picture and not know what to do? it really irks me when those digital cameras take forever to take that picture even after you've hit that button. when i'm standing that close to someone and we're both holding some sort of pose, i am always conscious of what i'm doing or what the other person is doing. and then i notice our breathing patterns and then thats when i kind of stop breathing and my smile freezes and it ends up looking real fake. sometimes i just want to turn to the other person beside me and blow in their face. but the most awkward thing about that situation is that you can't really move. you're forced to stay in that position! its almost as if the camera is playing with your head. just as soon as you move because you think you still have a second, it flashes and is like: I GOT YOU BITCH! WHAT NOW?!

then at this point, you end up wanting to take another picture because either your mouth is open like you're dying or one eye is closed. so, the cycle starts again.

*not having an orgasm...*

twits

2009-02-12T09:11:00.005-05:00

it seems to me that the latest trend that seems to be going on is twitter which i nicknamed twits because it just sounds funnier that way. i would have had a ball if it was twatter.

anyway, i dont really get why it's so fun, but i would just like to say, i had it before it became popular. if you look to your right, it says that my first twit was may 5th 2008. im so proud of myself.

but for those of you who still have no idea what i'm talking about, twitter is a social networking program that lets you communicate on the go. meaning you can use your cell phone and update your "followers" with a simple text. per say: "i'm pooping" or "my baby is coming...like, now!" you know---just in case this technology driven society isn't already enough updated about people's daily lives.

you can see that i only used twitter a couple of times, not because i dont think it could be great for other people, but because i thought it was stupid. but im brining it back onto my blog because i thought ya'll would like to know my every step and every move, just in case this blog wasn't fully satisfying. so, you're welcome.

*picture: compliments of wikipedia*

fire TRUCK

2009-02-10T17:04:00.003-05:00

this is wrong in so many ways, but it's so funny.

why kids should get candy and not anesthesia

2009-02-05T22:49:00.005-05:00

iwant

2009-02-05T19:17:00.004-05:00

i doubt people will argue with me when i boldly declare that apple inc. has taken us all by storm. especially the iphone. and if you can't get the iphone because you're not with at&t then you most likely have the itouch [like me].

welcome to the 'ibelong to apple' club.

so now that you own one of these things, you're ready to take the next level and discover all the other great things that us apple users can enjoy--such as apps [that's short for applications]--but no one says the full name; get with the macgram. at the app store, conveniently located in itunes, there is every app you can think of from more-than-neat dice games to apps that tell you which restaurant to eat at with the money thats left in your wallet. some of those apps are kinda weird--creepy--i have to admit. one in particular that caught my eye was an app called ipregnancy. and just like the name suggests, it's a pregnancy app. once you know when you've conceived, you put that information into the app and it'll give you all the information you would ever want to know about your pregnancy. meaning, they'll have 3D photos [of someone else's baby] to show you at what level your peanut is in and it also boasts a name picker.

i still think it's a little weird. but i guess its for people who really want to have every step planned out. so go take a look at the app store. maybe you'll find a cool one that'll suit you. i know i love the classics app [its a book app] and tap tap revenge [!]

the secret life

2009-01-26T15:06:00.003-05:00

there has only been one show where i watched RELIGIOUSLY in my lifetime, and that was alias . with alias, not only did i have to watch it every night, but i also bought all the books and DVD seasons. since alias ended, i hadn't found an american series that i deemed worthy enough to watch religiously. sure, i had the average favorites where if i missed a couple of episodes, it wouldn't matter. until very recently, i became obsessed with [yes, an obsession] with the secret life of the american teenager. granted that it's a long ass title, i love the show because it's different from what we've been used to appearing on TV. yeah, some people might like the hills, the OC, gossip girls, but it's not realistic. on the hills, it seems like everyone knows its fake except lauren. the gossip girls--everyone's too rich. they all act like they're late thirties.

the secret life is about a 15-year-old who gets pregnant from a one-night stand with the drummer in band camp. what better place than band camp?! so the story goes on about amy [pregnant teen] and how she learns to deal with being pregnant and going to high school at the same time. shailene woodley [pronounced as shay-lene]who plays amy in the secret life does a great job portraying this girl who's unsure about what to do next and is just being an annoying, hormonal 15-year-old who still needs to deal with backstabbing and looking fat in her clothes. what's even better?
molly ringwald plays shailene woodley's mother. molly ringwald was the best child actress of her time, and now she makes a break through performance as amy's mother who's trying to deal with a marriage that's falling apart and two teenage daughters. p.s. molly ringwald is pregnant with twins in real life--meaning that they'll add it into the plot for the secret life! a mother/daughter pregnancy!

i have bought the first season on itunes, and now am consistently downloading it's second season. it's worth the watch because it's done so perfectly about what really goes on. even though i'm not in high school anymore, i still prefer the realistic nature of this than shows that are meant to target people in my age group.

give it a shot! watch it and i bet you that you wouldn't be able to take your eyes off it.

this mother daughter duo really works well on screen. they both do an amazing job.

call me...pixie dinks

2009-01-24T15:50:00.002-05:00

i can't stress how important it is to get names right. there are two main things [that i can think of right now] that are VERY important--that you must never get wrong when naming things.

BABY NAMES
some of you aren't there yet, but you will. maybe then, through all that labor pain or even before that, through all those hormones, you might just go with the wrong name; names like, trixie bell, sailor, pixie, homer, nico, starshine, or brawley. [celebrity baby names] because lets face it, 9 out of 10 of you will not be able to make as much money as these celebrities will in your lifetime, therefore, your kids will get made fun of because they're probably not going to be popular.

SOLUTION?
please pick some more common names. if you wanted to be a little less conventional, go with names like dakota, shailene, jaden, zak, chase, or even ava. you want to help your kids minimize the percentage of being made fun of at all costs. BUT if you pop out a good looking kid it doesn't really matter what the heck you name them since their good looks will probably make it up.

EMAIL NAMES
i just had to change my gmail name and so i can tell you that it just plain sucks. im sure a lot you guys have gone through this process at least once in your life before because you hated your email name either because it was just too childish for your age at the moment or, like me, it has caused you some sort of embarrassment.

SOLUTION?
try and pick some universal names that you can see yourself still using in a couple of years from now. the suggestions that those programs generate are pretty lame, i have to admit, but you should consider using your name for emails that you need for professional business [ie. schools or work]. you dont want to use emails like sizzling8rl for venues like work. what kind of impression are you looking for??

15 days late

2009-01-15T13:43:00.001-05:00

ok, so i'm fifteen days late but NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS! have any? cause i don't have any.

i personally don't believe in them because you're just setting yourself up for a bigger disappointment. god knows no one really goes through with their resolutions. i'll give you at two weeks to a month before anyone gives up. some of them are ridiculous though, have you heard some of them?
well here is a top five list, that i know most people always have somewhere on their list.

lose weight / go to the gym - EVERYONE has had this on their list at least once. think about it. how sad is that? if all of america has thought of this at least once in their lifetime, even the innately skinny, then how bad does our self image have to be? it's even sadder to know that even though we know we should lose the "obesity" in america, no one does it because we end up going out one too many for that burger or pizza, two weeks after we've said "i need to lose weight, i feel like my arteries are clogging"
quit smoking / quit drinking - smoking i can see why you would want to quit. but quitting drinking all together?! WHY?! what happened to one glass of wine a day with that steak?! talk about losing weight and losing that urge to drink...
get out of debt - okay, let's be honest here...if you're going to over spend with your credit card the night before news years, most likely, you won't underspend the next day after the ball drops.
help others - have you ever watched that show "what would you do?" hosted by john quinones? its possible. his show gives me hope.
learn something new - i laugh---on the inside---whenever someone tells me this one. technically you're learning something new every day, and if you don't realize it, then you're pretty dumb and saying this is your new years resolution is just proclaiming that fact. if you were to say, do something new every day like anne hathaway did, then that'd be okay. [she blew out birthday cake candles with a fire extinguisher on jimmy kimmel!]

jin, but gin tastes good too

2009-01-09T11:44:00.002-05:00

im not one for rap. i dont like the lyrics most of the time, because half the time i can't understand them, but also because they're pretty much vulgar when i CAN hear them. so i never notice this category and i can't really name any rappers for you except for 50 cent. my cousin was talking to me about some chinese rapper last night, raving to me about how good he was. i said i've heard of him before, but i never paid attention. im talking about

jin au-yeung

if you don't live under a rock like me, you'll probably have seen him competing in Freestyle Friday (BET). right, my eyebrows came up at the sound of BET too. why is this chinese guy rapping with a whole bunch of black guys? you don't expect a chinese guy to rap because we stink at rapping, no doubt about it. i was skeptical when i listened to jin rap but i have to admit, he put a smile on my face, and a big bonus was--i could hear him.

1997 explains exactly why i want to go back and work in hong kong...for an american company.

PCA's

2009-01-08T18:55:00.001-05:00

to be honest, i wasn't sure if carrie underwood was going to win the favorite female singer award since she was up against rihanna and alicia keys who both have an amazing fan base. but like always, carrie always ends pulls through and she swept the award show, winning in all three categories! and to top it off, her performance was as good as ever

so that's one for favorite female singer

one for favorite star under 35

and one for favorite country song

amazing :]

3-letter word

2009-01-06T17:05:00.000-05:00

so most of you who know me, know that i want to go to grad school and get a masters in my minor. i've just began research on what i have to do, and let me tell you, it makes me want to throw up.
i thought after i get into freakin college, i wouldn't have to worry about any more standardized testing. yes well, i didn't think about grad school at that time, and now that i am, im dreading those standardized tests again.

who the freak came up with these TESTS?!

first it was the SATs and now its the GREs.

give-us-a-break

miss carrie underwood

2009-01-02T16:46:00.005-05:00

CMU is working on her third ALBUM!!!!!!!!!

--ok-- i am officially excited

fans will always be waiting for albums to come out and with the success rate of carrie's previous two albums, i'm positive that this third one will not be an exception to greatness. i love all her songs on carnival ride and some hearts, but i'm excited to see what she's coming up with next! i hope she writes more than three songs this time. new year, new album!

*photo taken from carrie-underwood.org

2009-01-01T01:12:00.000-05:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

may '09 be better than the last

hAted

2008-12-28T18:55:00.002-05:00

i feel like, every time i go shopping with my mom, i always end up hating whatever it is im shopping for. today was no different because we went furniture shopping, and then i realized that-----i really HATE furniture shopping. so in the car while i was sulking, i was thinking about the top three things that i really hate shopping for, and i think i have it. actually, im pretty positive i have it.

THIRD
   dress shopping - the first really bad experience was when i went prom shopping with my friend. we literally spent four hours at one mall, going back and forth to each store, searching for that perfect dress. by the fourth time around to those same stores again, i was just like, c'mon already. you can't blame me for being blunt and telling you truthfully that one looks uglier than the other, because that's just my way of telling you to hurry your ass up. the second kind of dress shopping is wedding dress shopping. my sister got married last year, and oh my goodness. not only are those wedding dress shops humongous but boy are those things heavy! i was not happy lifting dress after dress through those stores, trying to side step other people's trains.

SECOND
   furniture shopping - there's not much i can say why i hate doing this, i just do. how hard is it to pick furniture? you have an idea of what you like in your mind, go into a nice store, and find it. of course it has to be comfortable and durable, and i get that, but does it really take six hours to figure that out?

FIRST
   shopping for my mother - only because every thing i buy, she wants to return. it gets frustrating sometimes because sometimes its either too expensive, or too ugly, or not her style. but then if i ever opt to not get her anything, then she'll be upset at me for not getting anything for her. it's really a lose lose situation for me.

PS.
-what can i do to get you guys to comment? [you do know that you don't have to be registered with blogger to comment, right?]
-what can i do to get more readers? [i've already posted my link to various forums i visit.]

double take

2008-12-23T01:17:00.001-05:00

i was watching the 43 episode of the gem of life just before, and one of ada's outfit caught my eyes.

this is ada wearing this very familiar outfit when she's talking to moses, handing him a cup of coffee. looking at it right away, i was like, wait a second! where have i seen this worn before? then i realized my favorite girl had worn it in a journey called life.

this is linda wearing the same dress/top that ada was wearing in the gem of life and i have to say, it looks better on linda. lol. not because im biased but because in the scene where linda wears this top is when she's pregnant [if my memory is not mistaken] and it really works because it does look like a pregnancy outfit.

when ada wears it, it really does look like she's pregnant when she's not, and yellow just doesn't suit her. and i really didn't think that TVB would reuse an outfit previously worn on such a big production and on a production where the person who had worn the outfit is part of...

OCDC

2008-12-22T10:50:00.002-05:00

my cousin and i were just discussing the other day how we both have some minor OCD [i said it too fast one time and said OCDC--as in ACDC the band...idk. don't ask why] and as we were naming them, i've realized that i've got a lot! but they are minor, i swear :]

if i have one product, let's say my ipod, i'd have to have the accessories for it in the same color. so, my ipod is the classic white and so even if the apple headphones suck and break all the time, i still want it because it's white. my case/covering for my ipod is also white, and so are the other accessories like remote, airport, etc.
my music on my ipod has to have the correct titles, with the correct album name and picture. the titles have to be capitalized as it should be. if the title is in chinese, i will go crazy unless i find the correct title of the song, and it has to be in traditional chinese, it can't be in simplified because i think simplified chinese looks ugly.
i can't sleep if my roommate isn't sleeping. if she's up and about or if she's watching tv, i can't do it. i feel like she has to be in bed like me, trying to sleep before i can fall asleep. if she's at her desk working on her computer and making close to no noise, i still can't sleep. but if i know she won't be back i can go to sleep like that, but if i know she's coming back, i'd have to wait for her to come back and wait till she gets in bed before i can sleep.
my room has to be clean and arranged as it is. my movies, my makeup accessories, my other knick-knacks have a certain place in my room. and if one of my movies is pushed back a little too far or my lotion is moved an inch from it's spot, i'll know and i'll need it placed back where it is.
i can't have my toothbrush in a cup with other people's toothbrush. even if you're part of my immediate family. no. nope. i don't care how clean your dentist says your mouth is, i can't.
when i brush my teeth, i need to see bubbles. if i don't see bubbles, i don't think my teeth are clean. and i'll most likely start all over again with more toothpaste.
my class notes have to be a certain way too. they have to be dated because that's how i organize my notes. it'll drive me crazy if my notes are not in the order that it's supposed to be.
the hangers in my closet have to be the same color. preferably white. i hate the wooden kinds, and i like those hangers that go through all the way with nothing on the inside...you know, those hangers that are made especially for men's pants.
i can't watch a movie that was previously a book without reading the book. i need to know what happens in the book before i go watch the movie, and it doesn't ruin it for me, but it helps because movies cut out a lot of good parts from the books because there's not enough time, so i like knowing.
my sheets on my bed have to match. i don't mean by color...like, the bed sheet doesn't have to be the same color as the blanket cover, but as long as they match in some way, then i'm good.

minor things, right?

circle of friends

2008-12-17T12:01:00.001-05:00

SCENARIO:

you're going out with two other good friends of yours. and after all the shopping, movie, whatever you do when you go out, you end up going to lunch/dinner. the waiter takes you to a rectangular table for four and both of your friends takes a seat on either side, scooting over one to make room for you.

DILEMA:

what the freak do you do?

PROBLEM:

if you take one side and sit down, then your other friend, whom you didn't sit with will think:

"oh my gosh, she doesn't like me. she likes yada-yada better!"
"oh god, is it because i smell?"

DILEMA:

what the freak do you do?

i was faced with exactly the same situation the other day, and both girls were good friends of mine. i wasn't friends with one more than the other, so what did i do?

I sat at the head of the table.

you could spare your good friends from thinking that you've gotten lame of them, or that they have any kind of body odor and just be neutral. either that, or you request a circular table. that way, everyone is sitting with everyone and no arguments. viola.

how to dodge a shoe 101

2008-12-15T11:26:00.001-05:00

so we all know that p. bush is good a dodger. we didn't need this video to show us that he's good. nice dodge p. bush. nice dodge.

romancing the world

2008-12-14T11:26:00.000-05:00

on the right is the video of il divo and celine dion performing [i believe in you {je crois en toi}]. i know a lot of people don't know who il divo is, but they are a group worth knowing. they are EXCELLENT at what they do, and can completely romance your heart.

facts:

"il divo" means divine male
the quartet is made up of multinational singers, hailing from Spain, Switzerland, United States, and France

David Miller (United States)
Carlos Marín (Spain)
Urs Bühler (Switzerland)
Sébastien Izambard (France)

they sing in: English, Italian, Spanish, French, and Latin
they've performed with many legends including celine dion and barbara streisand
they've had multi-platinum selling albums world wide, with their first album in 2004 topping 13 country's charts
and it helps that they're hot [or at least i think sebastien is way hot]

[from left to right: Urs Bühler, Sébastien Izambard, Carlos Marín, and David Miller]

steroids are not candy

2008-12-07T23:42:00.003-05:00

EW.

apparently this guy [gregg valentino] was on so much steroids that his biceps actually exploded.......

celebrities

2008-12-01T16:03:00.000-05:00

celebrities are like an elite specimen of people. the paparazzi have a way of making them so beautiful so worship-able, right? RIGHT. that's where you get the super fans that need the 30-feet restraining order. but if you take away all that makeup, all those camera flashes and that man-made wind, you are only left with human.
when we see them on the cover of magazines and rave over their latest movie, we fail to recognize their more than humanistic ways, so let me give me a slight reminder:

they still pick nose. you might never catch them in the act, but they do it. everyone's got boogers that hurt their nose.

they still pick their teeth. whether they floss or use the old fashioned tooth pick, they still do it because they still eat right? and even if they don't eat, they'd still vomit and vomiting stuff back out can make it get stuck in their teethes.

they still fart. no one's farts smell pretty and that includes celebrities. but can you imagine being an assistant? maybe the celebrity may ask you to spray perfume right behind them after they've let one rip... O_O

they still pick lint off their feet. i don't care if their socks are made of cashmere, things still get stuck in between your toes.

they still poop and pee. yeah...i don't have to say why.

i think the reason why we don't realize they still do these things is that we think that beautiful people don't need to bother with these things. and also because we don't want to imagine them doing these nasty things [things that we find nasty]. think about it. i bet you can't say that you've never thought of brad pitt pooping on his porcelain toilet or that natalie portman may just well pick her nose right before eating her dinner.

baby, baby, baby

2008-11-15T02:31:00.003-05:00

justjared just had a baby...named junior.
no joke

http://justjaredjr.buzznet.com/

go check it out

stalkers

2008-11-13T23:02:00.000-05:00

no wonder why there are so many stalkers in this world right now. the technology now makes it THAT much easier to stalk people.

and i just found another way.

first it was facebook [yes, admit it, everyone gets a facebook just to stalk other people]. and NOW! there's virtual earth!!! its so cool. you can see your home now in bird's eye view, which is 10x better than aerial view, meaning you can view the house from the south, west, east, AND the north. then there's also a 3D feature. but i haven't seen how that works yet because my safari doesn't support it.

try it and be amazed --- maps.live.com

CMA's '08

2008-11-13T00:23:00.000-05:00

[that kinda looks like obama '08 when you just glance at it doesn't it?]

ANYWAY

it's no surprise that i love, love, love country music, and therefore i love carrie underwood. i just have to say, she won. take that taylor swift.
she changed like what? seven times? --staying true to the country queen. but reba mcentire had a world record of like, 50 outfits one time. but i can't say i liked all of the dresses she had. i don't know, you guys can see for yourself. i think i liked the gold one the best. she won in the frilly black one.

HSM series

2008-11-11T19:50:00.000-05:00

i've caught onto the high school musical fever, just like the rest of the 1.5 million little kids. [but i'm sure like, a couple thousand of the millions are adults like me--or so i like to think] hsm for me is just like any other romantic drama. its really cute and the songs are VERY catchy.

i still haven't watched hsm3, but i'm already in love with the music on it. i really want to watch it, but no one will watch with me...go figure. either you're afraid to admit that you're just dying to watch it, or you're just stuck under some rock and won't budge.

like the title suggests, its senior year for these high schoolers. im not in high school anymore, but i certainly remember being a senior in high school, even though im about to become a senior in college now. [seriously, you can never be too old to enjoy disney films] hehehe.
i remember prom, college applications, and falling in love--all at once.

what i love about the hsm songs, is that they kind of grow with the movies. the meaning behind them get more mature as the kids get more mature. i love this single song ["can i have this dance"] in the movie. i've seen clips of it, and i think it can easily be my favorite part in the entire movie. i love the meaning behind this particular song, and it really warms my heart because it can totally be a wedding song. haha.

2008-11-07T18:04:00.000-05:00

i can graduate early!

boo-yah

obama '08

2008-11-05T01:10:00.000-05:00

so starts the year of change.

i just got a disturbing look of disgust from a roommate's friend:

"hey kasie, guess what, MY president's black."

---really...i didn't notice.
if this is the type of change this brings forth, then no, i still want the maverick.

god i hope he proves me wrong

4 years

all the democrats in the street are going crazy [esp. college students] shouting fuck you, fuck you to republicans. this is real mature guys. yes, i see that this is a big change in america, for a black man to be president, but this isn't all that you should have voted him for. half of these people don't know the very beginning of how policies work within the government...and it makes me sad that our nation was so divided these past few months because we simply wanted *change.* ask yourself what kind of change you wanted to see--change for a black man to sit on the hot seat and not a white man?

it'll take more than one obama to change where we are now, but for the sake of our country, for the sake of my children's country, let's hope obama can carry forth the heavy reforms we all want...

commerce what?

2008-11-01T21:44:00.000-04:00

i felt like all of us commerce bank users were just pleasantly surprised when i drove by our bank this morning. the always obnoxiously red bank was now an obnoxious pea green with the words TD Bank spread across the top of the bank.

what...happened...

there was seriously no notice from the bank itself of the consolidation until i drove past the bank this morning and saw that it was green. so now, im wondering if im still a commerce user of if im a td user now, and if it doesn't work like that, then holy shit. where is all my money? where are the safety deposit box contents?

so i look up the story online, and apparently td [td waterhouse, this is where you've heard of them. big stock fund] had bought out commerce bank for 8.5 million. [seriously, where do they still have the money to do this? --i thought we were in a financial crisis?] long story short, td bank is gluing their sign and color over the old commerce signs. they're keeping everything else within the actual bank the same, including lollypops and doggie treats. i wonder if we get green apple lollypops now instead of the usual red cherry ones?

our economic crisis has gotten me a bit antsy. i won't lie. we are in such a rut, i don't even see how it'll get better for us.

well...

hello grad school

waitin...

2008-10-30T19:20:00.001-04:00

so there are two things i'm seriously just sitting here and waitng for right now --

christmas
my 21st birthday

christmas because this weather feels like christmas. it got so cold down here that it was snowed one day [just a little] but still! it was THAT COLD. hello global warming. this is a first, having snow in october. but if this can happen, imagine how much snow we'd get this year! last year was just disappointing -- nothing. but this year, i can see future class cancelations, future flight cancelations [when im already in hawaii], and calls for furry coats. i just love christmas in general, im started to get myself excited, thinking about making candies and cakes.

and waiting for the 21st birthday just because every one of my friends around me are turning 21 and it sucks that im not. and who wouldn't want to turn 21? its like, yes, you're finally free. turning 18 was just a little joke. they weren't really setting you free...only teasing you with a little bit of freedom.

look at my elbows!

2008-10-27T17:57:00.000-04:00

have you ever felt like a retard when you miss the high fives that people send your way? alright, if you miss on the first try, they'll probably give you another shot and high five you again. --but you'll probably miss one more time. ITS OKAY!

be dorks no more

i have a technique for those missed high fives. the technique?

look at that person's elbows

try it.

2008-10-16T16:20:00.000-04:00

girls are bitchy

sometimes guys don't realize this, but we ARE. i think even worse than guys sometimes. all that gossiping, the backstabbing, it's not a pleasant thing. i think words hurt more than physical punches, especially when they're jabbed at you time after time. once something is said, and your reputation gets ruined, then forget it. you're done. mmhmm

flat on the treadmill

2008-10-14T12:45:00.000-04:00

so, a little update on yesterday. this morning, after my shower, i looked at the places where i got hurt and they was HUGE. i mean, it hurt, but hey. i went to the doctor's afterwards [i had a report i had to pick up] and i told him about my fall on the treadmill, so he makes me lift up my pants to show him, and he rips off my bandages and he was like:

doctor: kasie, what did you do to yourself?? these are second degree burns!
me: [mouth falls open] no way! it's just a treadmill
doctor: you tell me... kasie, treadmills are supposed to help you, not hurt you. take it easy

ipods

2008-10-14T01:12:00.001-04:00

okay, so i'm a little mad -- at this little device. i have one, and im sure ya'll got one too. don't deny it. if you don't, you probably want one. and if you dont then you're weird [kidding].

anyway

i was running before on the treadmill at 6.5, and to me, that's pretty darn fast, considering the fact that im not a professional runner or sprinter. i was in my element, rockin out to a carrie tune, singing along...

i lift my hand to smooth back my bangs and when i put my arm back into running position, it smacks the slack of my headphones, and my ipod goes flying.

i love my ipod.

who doesn't?

so, my first reaction is to try and scoop it and save it--save it from getting dents or scratches from falling on the treadmill. yeah well, i forgot i was on 6.5, and yes, i went flying with the ipod.

needless to say, i got a nice big burn on both my knees as well as a little boob bruising from falling that way. i called my dad a bit afterwards and got a burst of laughter from him.

dad: "why didn't you just let it fall??"

me: "because i love my ipod--daddy, stop laughing at me. it hurts"

why the fack do we care about our electronics so damn much?? GOD. it wasn't going to crack if i didn't save it because i've got a case on it. so smart. i would take pictures of my burn and post it, but i can't reach my camera on the other side of the room cuz it hurts to walk! freakin' a.

"mooncake show"

2008-10-13T16:57:00.004-04:00

that's what we [my cousin and i] have affectionately come to call Moonlight Resonance 家好月圓. anyway, i finally finished it last night, and i wasn't as in love with it as i thought i would be. towards the last couple of episodes, i was thinking to myself, omg, maybe this is one of TVB's series that will have a mind blowing ending! but no--it ended rushed, like always. i was really happy that linda and raymond got together at the end because during the whole series, they just built that sweet image of them in our minds, and that was satisfying. but i do have some problems with it, and i doubt it could be called minor.

1. i would have liked to know what happened to fala's baby. i saw a little kid at their table who looked to be about 4-5 years old, but i would have liked to see his face, or known his name or something.

2. before they had cut to 4 years later, the scene was with moses and tavia celebrating tavia's birthday. he had leaned his head on her shoulder and i got the impression that he had died. what happened?! they had focused on that lamp above their heads and dramatically turned it off with a flicker, and why the heck was she crying if he wasn't dead?!

3. because they are my two favorite people, i wanted to know more about raymond and linda. they never talked about whether or not they got married, or if she's still a doctor.

4. and even though i hate kate, and i still hate kate, i would have liked to know more about her relationship with lai lok yi. they had something sweet going on, and they just randomly cut that out, just like how they had inserted how "chiu ping" had a baby during dinner. they never showed her face, so who the fack cares whether or not she had a girl.

but i do have to admit that the scenes between tavia and moses were super cute at the end, when he was holding the kid. their dialogue was cute, how she was saying that he was always threatening her with his possibility of dying at any moment, and how she had to have kids with him.

so yes, i know this picture isn't when they were filming [but that just goes to show they look good together off screen too!], but every time linda and raymond had a scene, i would always focus a little harder. when i watch TVB series, i try not to think. because if i think, i can always guess what's going to happen next. let's face it, TVB doesn't leave room for creativity. so anyway, when i saw linda just throw away their relationship for bosco -- i was floored. but that just made it all the better when they were back together at the end. my favorite couple by far. <3

i also have a carrie song up. i dont have a particular favorite right now, so, a carrie song can't hurt. her songs are always good to me :]

politics

2008-10-07T00:23:00.000-04:00

i don't like talking about politics with people. partly because i don't like the arguing, and partly because i really don't care what you think after i've made up my mind. but today, i will make a small exception.
i was on the train last weekend going out to NYC and i overheard this kid talking.

kid: who are you going to vote for?
lady: i dont know. what about you?
kid: i think i want mccain. i like his policies.

at this point, i look over and this kid doesn't look more than 8 years old.

kid: i like how he wants to lower health care costs.

wtf. i was NOT thinking about politics when i was 8. i was thinking about why earthworms had two butts. these kids are all getting so much smarter and growing up so much faster than they really need to. i mean, they're all on computers now, playing video games of skateboarding, INSTEAD of actually going outside to play skateboarding. i get that this world is now all high tech, but we're losing some of our kids.

i said small exception :)

tickle me pickle me

2008-10-03T21:58:00.001-04:00

there are two kinds of edible things that always manages to make me grin ear to ear--candy and cupcakes--without fail. candy, there's no need to explain, who doesn't like candy??? but with cupcakes...Ohhh Mm Geee. just looking at one would make me smirk. there's something about cupcakes that make me really want to eat one. but even if you got me some and said i couldn't eat it, i would just be happy to look at it.

i have been out on a mission to find the most sumptuous cupcakes around me, and that includes special flavors. i'm pretty much done with chocolate and vanilla, that just doesn't cut it anymore. so i was super elated to find Sprinkles Cupcakes but too bad sprinkles isn't anywhere near me, so i can only look at it. sucks. so, i've resolved to make my own. and i found this new recipe! thought i'd share. this is key lime cupcake. i'm soooo gonna try it!! look at how good it looks!!

cupcakes are the way to my heart

forgetting sarah marshall

2008-10-01T22:15:00.001-04:00

* its a miracle; it's like someone heard me writing that last post. --i went into the bathroom before and there was a constant gust of wind...WE HAVE VENTILATION! no more mold, no more lingering poop aroma. YES *

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i just saw "forgetting sarah marshall" on dvd yesterday and i LOVED it. its like, super rated R though because this is the first film where i've actually seen a guy's actual P. its no surprise to see girls' B's all the time in feature film, so this is new. but other than that, the movie was your typical guy movie- surrounds the central theme [actually, i dont really know what the theme was] around sex. it was really cute though, the love scenes where one character, peter, learns to fall in love with a hawaiian girl. so it works for both girls and guys. this is one other movie that i've ever seen that has made me laugh out loud. the other one was without a paddle. check it out, its worth the 2 hrs. [thats what it felt like...idk]

* the song i just added is a track from the OST from the movie. its sung in hawaiian, so --- no, its not caveman speak. its their rendition of 'nothing compares to you' i fell in love with it the moment i heard it. pretty. *

public bathrooms

2008-09-30T21:41:00.001-04:00

there are several major reasons why i don't like sharing a place with a whole bunch of girls [or guys for that matter]. but one of the main ones that bug the crap out of me is the bathroom:

toilet paper has always been an issue. not only that sometimes that there is none, but it never gets put back in the rollie thing. its like, how hard is it to insert the stick into the roll and put it back instead of leaving the toilet paper on top of the old one?
humidity. our [pleasant] bathroom at school does not have ventilation. so after someone takes a shower and leaves the door shut, the bathroom ends up getting all muggy and moldy. if the door likes to close behind you, then stay there and make sure it stays open. i dont feel like inhaling invisible mold.
because there is no ventilation, you have got to spray it after you do your business. like i said before in a previous post, your poop does not smell nice, despite what your mother says.
i find that the toilet seat is a sacred place. its where some people do their best reading and thinking. and i get that some people like to sit there for hours on end, i get that. i really do. but why is the toilet seat sticky?? you do not eat with your butt, so there is no excuse for why your butt is sticky...unless you sweat in your butt...which is weird...
close the door when you go to the bathroom and lock it. and if someone knocks, then answer, otherwise its a go for the knocker to just barge in. then you can't give us dirty looks.

double negatives

2008-09-26T14:30:00.002-04:00

friend: "i don't know nothing"

me: "obviously"

friend: "what??"

me: "you just used double negatives."

friend: "what?"

me: "double negatives in the english language doesn't make a positive...it's not like math."

friend: ".........what?"

*what of this new layout? boring? --yeah. i think so too. but too bad! i like that its easy on the eyes.

UNDERconstruction

2008-09-24T20:05:00.000-04:00

yes, my site is going through some construction as you can see. bear with me as i will try and have it spiced up the right way. it annoys me too that this thing can't function correctly. i am ______________________________ close to switching over to wordpress

multitasking

2008-09-22T19:51:00.000-04:00

multitasking (noun) - the simultaneous execution of more than one program or task by a single ... - compliments of my apple dictionary
[ after the ...'s, it actually says by a computer processor, but everyone knows that this word does not only apply to computers.]

so, here it is, the definition of multitasking. in simple terms, multitasking is:

being able to play video games while pooping
brushing your teeth while driving
cooking and feeding your baby
walking your mastiff while sending company emails
trying on jeans and writing an essay [extra points if you can churn out 6+ pages]

but, the company steelcase has taken away our [my] definition of multitasking. thanks to overweight-america, this company has come up with this badass machine that lets you work out while you work.

how the hell does that work?

[you ask]

simple. they made a walk-desk. its a treadmill attached to a desk. no joke...even though that does sound pretty funny.

i mean, can you imagine how easy for a co-worker who hates you try to get even?? just turn your treadmill up higher and bam! you'll fall flat on your face with your papers flying all over the place. but of course the folks at steelcase have considered that and made it so that the treadmill can only be as fast as an average walk in the park.

but how fat has america gotten for inventors to come up with something like that?

thats a little sad

100th post ;]

2008-09-15T16:53:00.000-04:00

so, retarded as i am, i think the poll doesn't work.

but the answer is no. they don't sound the same. (native speakers will not hear the difference, but if you do the puff of air on your hand, you will be able to tell the difference. not lying.)

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but yay! its my 100th post since i started a while back. gosh. 100 posts of pure nothing. lol. so, to celebrate, i'm going to share a new song that im in love with. now, i dont really like taylor swift as a country singer [because personally, i dont think she's that country]. but this song just came out and it sort of mirrors my [life story] right now.

linguistics

2008-09-11T14:43:00.003-04:00

so this is my first poll, and in order for this to work, ya'll actually have to vote... so work with me here

"quaternary education"

2008-09-09T10:31:00.002-04:00

doesn't that sound scary?? i thought it did. its just another fancy name for graduate school--which is also scary in it's own right. yup. i've been looking at graduate schools lately since it is my junior year already. i probably wouldn't want to be filling out applications during senior year when i've got to write my senior paper, which i hear by the way, is supposed to be 200 some odd pages long... [oh golly]

so i stayed up late last night looking at some universities with the graduate program im aiming for, and i couldn't help but laugh, thinking that i was going to college again. the application process, the waiting, the humiliation and the hurt of rejection... all comes full circle again. its like, geez, where in the world did my last two years go? what the hell did i learn?? um -- lets not answer that.

but god, its true when they say you never stop learning...either you're still stuck in school getting like, your fourth master degree because you still can't get a job anywhere but mcdonalds, or you're business company is sending you to "get with the program"

regardless, here is my list:

1. UNC at Chapel Hill
2. Northeastern State University
3. LSU
4. University of Tennessee
5. University of Maryland
6. Penn State

yes, i like the south. get over it.

[considering...but completely far fetched - except maybe UBC]
1. University of Canterbury
2. Deakin University
3. The University of Hong Kong
4. UBC
5. City University of Hong Kong

"failing is what makes you succeed"

2008-09-04T21:27:00.001-04:00

so does that mean that i can fail all my classes at college and succeed in LIFE ?! O_O

that'd be awesome, but lets be realistic

you can't be that dumb...right?

classes have started, and yeah, they're a pain in the ass because i've already got my first 10-page paper due on tuesday. im also taking art history, and i can't really say i like it. but my french class is pas mal, actually. monsieur ellman only speaks french and no english except when he pronounces our names, which is perfectly fine for me -- thank you high school french.

but besides classes, i love being back at school because it means independence. no more are those summer days when i had to tell everyone where i was going and what time i'd be back. at college, i will forget to eat dinner and be a-okay. i can also not wash my clothes for a week and not have someone breathing down my back. i dont have to fix my bed, and i dont have to clean up my clothes off the floor.

however

i've noticed some things have changed about me since retuning this year as a junior:

i used to never care if my bed was made or not. who freakin' cares if you're just going to sleep in it anyway and mess it up again later on?? -- but now, i have to make it before i leave the room. i can't tell you why i feel like i have to now, but i just feel like it just makes ME feel better to have it made
and no longer can i leave clothes strewn on the floor or hanging out of my drawers because -- UGH. it would drive me insane now. maybe i can hold out for a couple of days before i go crazy and do a complete cleaning of the entire room [my side of the room]
i can still wait a week to wash my clothes. i dont think that's a big deal. maybe in part because i've got so much clothes stuffed in my one dresser.
i still forget to eat dinner, and i still am okay with it. i think with college, you just tend to have so much fun going from floor to floor visiting each friend that you just forget by the time you go to bed. and when you wake up, it's already 12, and it's time for lunch!

all the stuff that needed to be at school with me

but it doesn't look like much, does it? -- and i know, i will decorate later. shush

roommate woes

2008-08-30T18:42:00.000-04:00

so today i moved into my dorm room, and since its my third year, its nothing new to me anymore. but this year, i was talking to my friend who's an RA and we both agreed that there were PLENTY of new freshmen this year. nothing wrong with freshmen, i was once one, but there is something wrong with you if you can't follow the basic [unsaid] rooming rules.

1. change the toilet paper. its not fun or funny when the next person goes to the bathroom with number two and winds up with a square or three of toilet paper left. just because we're in college, doesn't mean that we'll do everything -- like wiping our butts with our hands. we do some pretty dumb things, but we're not THAT dumb.

2. the walls aren't made of egg cartons. the walls are almost paper thin, so yes, we hear everything that you do. so be considerate, and don't bounce basketballs on the walls, don't bang the bed against the wall when you're ... doing whatever you're doing, and keep your voice down when you're on the phone. we don't want to hear about how you broke up with your boyfriend or that you were getting down with your other half last night. its okay.

3. finals week means shut up. if you don't have finals, then go home. no one wants to hear you brag about not having finals and no one will appreciate your noise when you're playing your PSP or something.

4. food. not everyone has kitchens, thank god. but microwaves are sometimes just as bad. not only are the walls paper thin, they also soak up every single smell that floats through the air. so please refrain from eating weird smelling foods in your room because it might be pleasant when you're eating it, but its not pleasant for the other people around you.

so yeah, heads up froshies. try not to get beat up. try not to pass out on the campus lawns. and don't drink before class.

i got moon-ed

2008-08-28T00:56:00.001-04:00

i have to admit that i was a fan of the previous one. i just fell in love with all the relationships that were created, especially the one with moses chan and linda chung. LOVE IT. so needless to say, i was the first to jump out of my chair when they said they were doing a sequel for heart of greed.

but, of course i had to forget that sequels usually never are equals to their previous installments. i definitely have a bone to pick with moonlight resonance [moonlight resonance?? that's a far cry from heart of greed]

is it just me, or does anyone else hate the way the characters have changed? i dont like how no one is related the same way and i hate how tavia yeung is now the adopted daughter because they dont really go into specifics about what really happened. [i only watched up to ep. 5 -- excuse me] and i definitely hate how they advocate incest.

im sorry, i dont care if you're not really brothers and sisters [ie, the suggested relationship between linda chung and raymond lam] but its gross to have feelings for each other like that. i mean, how can you?! you've watched each other grow up and then you're going to do them and have kids? that's just messed up. it was giving me such a flashback of the first cruel intentions where ryan philippe and sara michelle geller made out. THEY weren't blood related but they WERE half brothers and sisters and guess what, we gagged at that scene...yeah.

yes, i hear that linda and raymond never get together [because in steps bosco] and moses and tavia never get together, or something like that, but ew. even for the suggestion is bad... i haven't been watching yet, but please, tell me that it's worth the gut feeling of sin.

new brain teaser game = "where's my soulmate?"

2008-08-25T14:09:00.001-04:00

so yesterday, i finally got to sit down and have some face time with my lovely G-ma. usually, she's out playing mahjong with her buddies at their apartments and doesn't come home till after dinner. on the weekends, she out again with her friends to places like NY chinatown or to go grocery shopping in groups [i swear, she has more fun than i do at times] so its not always likely that i'll see her when i come home from school or whatever.

anyway

we got around to talking about dating...go figure. she was talking about her olden days, as per usual. but this time, i really felt rushed. personally, i want a big family of my own. i want four kids, at the most, and i want to get married young. i dont want to be 30 and just have my first kid. i know that plans never always work out perfect, but my ideal age is to get married at 24. and if that were to really happen, it would mean that i would have to start dating someone "husband material" now. at school, i see no potential mate, and by the time i graduate, i would never find someone. i dont want to date someone at work because that always gets messy. but i mean, i only have TWO more years left before i graduate! i remember just leaving HS and thinking i had all the time in the world. all the other adults around me are just like, dont worry, you're still young, you have plenty of time.

plenty of time, yes. i'll live till im 80. but you have to admit that the biological clock doesn't tick that long. lets face it. i dont want to be 50 and have a kid that's 10 because by the time he graduates, i'll probably be so blind that i can't see him walk down the aisle, much less see him get married. by that time, he'll probably want to introduce me to friends as his grandma instead.
i want to be that fashionable young mother who's got the style and the energy to keep up with her kids. i dont want to be stuck with the mom haircut and the mom body which i will gag at every time i look in the mirror.

but the problem is, it's not that i don't try finding "the one." boys nowadays not only have big pants but also egos to match. so is it really that farfetched when my G-ma tells me that a guy who is at least 5 years older than me, is perfect?

pros ||
- he'll be settled - ready with a good paying job and home - no shoe boxes for starters and yes to organic shopping
- wiser - he'll automatically know how to deal with children and diapers and most importantly, a hormonal wife
- has direction - not all, but most men by this time will already have an idea of how they want the rest of their life to go. its good to have goals...bad to have none

cons ||
- he's 8 years older - which means he'll be in a different stage in life. we won't have the same friends which translates as we won't have as much to talk about
- he's 8 years older - which means that he probably won't want to go to the bar with me for drinks anymore and just want to stay in and cuddle in front of a saturday night movie because sundays are reserved for laundry
- he's 8 years older - which means that he'll be ready to get married and have kids by the time i'm 21, which translates to too young for me to have kids

but even before i can rant about all this stuff...

where the hell is he?

second parents

2008-08-23T01:54:00.002-04:00

there are so many people that i've talked to that have godparents whom they aren't close with. and i have to say -- i can't relate.

i have a godfather and i love him just like a second father. i admit that i could spend more time with him, but with our schedules, the time that we manage now is pretty good already [i think]. i love the relationship that i have with him now, and the relationship i had with him before when i was younger. i remember spending time with him and his family, growing up with his nephews and acting as if i was one of their cousins. it was very -- at home -- for me.

i love having a lot of people around me

and i think i find it a thrill to be able to say i have a godpa. its not only a "title" to me. its more than that for me and i guess it frustrates me when people tell me stories of how detached they are to their godparents. its such a special relationship to have and yet people neglect that fact because they "don't really count as family"

i can't imagine a definition of family without godparents

idk, it just sucks to see people around me not value their relationships. it takes forever to build one, and just a single action or word to break it. as daddy's little girl, its a bonus for me to have another daddy to spoil me, and since i don't have much of a relationship with my mother, i want a godma to spoil her with a bit of me. so ---

"start a new fashion, wear your heart on your sleeve" -CU

personal teddy to stop my tears

i heart dogs

2008-08-18T10:19:00.001-04:00

i really want him!

unattractive old pilots

2008-08-12T23:40:00.000-04:00

i just got back today from my trip from hong kong, and i have to admit, that im not looking forward to going back anytime soon. fifteen hours is just way too long to be sitting in a super crowded air craft. but when i was in hong kong, i also got a chance to sneak away to japan on cathay pacific, which was a first for me (to ride cathay and go to japan) but anyhoo, that prompted me to do a little comparison to the two biggest asian flying giants.

continental = blue
cathay = green

service:
con - i have never been fond of their service. whenever i get into their check-in area, i always get so turned off by these random flight attendants coming around and shouting out at people to get to empty lines.
cat - the ladies were smiling and they never assumed that you spoke one language, and so they were very versatile. and they never interrupted me when i had a question or when i wanted to say something stupid.

flight attendants:
con - granted, they're very nice when they greet you when you come into the plane. they're very nice about showing you where your seat is (but i think that's a little irritating because it does say on your ticket). and its a scam. because after that door closes, that smile goes from their faces and suddenly they're miss cranky pants.
cat - unlike continental, their smiles last throughout the flight. they're always kind. you know how when you're on the plane, sometimes your ears and your quality of sound end up declining? yeah...cathay flight attendants won't give you dirty looks like you've just said something real inappropriate.
con - they're getting old. im sorry. most of the continental flights that i've been on have ladies that are in their 40's and up. not that i don't think that's fine, but if you're going to turn all sour on your clients, then you need to take some happy pills and perk up those old ... wrinkles.
cat - they're not all that young either, but they're not nearing their 50's either.

pilots:
con - its very important to have pilots to talk to their clients before flight take-off to kind of, you know, insure that you're in safe hands with a nice, welcome aboard. but no... not all continental pilots take this time to talk to their clients. and i've noticed that they're a little older as well, like the rest of their crew. meaning that landing is now jeopardized. for this last flight of mine, the last 20 minutes before touchdown, i felt like i was on a roller coaster. there must have been three times where the plane actually dipped so much that i felt my heart go up my throat. the poor kids around us were all screaming and crying in fright. gosh.
cat - they made the smoothest landings and the smoothest take-offs. when we landed, someone in front of me actually said, when did we take off?

continental needs to spice things up.

typhoon aka big wind

2008-08-06T11:42:00.002-04:00

so i've been here for three months and i've been lucky enough to go through two typhoons here in lovely hong kong.

GREAT

both times they were level 8 (their highest) and both times i was stuck at home...with nothing to do. i dont know why they make it such a big deal. its like, minor winds to me when i walk outside. can these people really be that scared of wind?!

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it really isn't funny to laugh at other people's misfortunes ... but its funny. in light of yesterday's typhoon, i wanted to point out just a couple of things.

1. if you know that its going to be high winds with rain, don't bring an umbrella. the umbrellas not going to help you if winds are high, because you're just going to be struggling to keep the umbrella upright.
2. don't wear skirts. unless you want to reenact a marilyn monroe all the way down the full stretch of the hong kong island.
3. don't put your laundry out for drying. granted that small winds are good to dry your clothes faster--but be smart and pull them back in when the winds get higher because i'm almost positive that fellow typhoon bravers [that's not a word] on the street will not appreciate it when your socks, or better yet your under wear, get caught in their face.

i find this last picture needlessly amusing...

what you SHOULD do is -- wear a helmet!

home never looked sweeter

2008-08-01T00:21:00.000-04:00

i've been in hong kong for almost three months now, and im desperately yearning to go home. towards the end of my trip, i feel like everything is coming at me in a whirlwind and suddenly, everyone wants to see me before i leave. it always happens that way. its like, i've had all the time in the world for you to see me, but you wait till the very end to try and fit in something with me. there are really just two reasons why people do this:

1. they feel like this is a great time to see you because that means that they are not obligated for a second visit since you're leaving soon anyway.

2. they want you to bring something back for them. and usually, it's not something light or small...it usually is something big and heavy and may cause damage to the original contents in your luggage.

my solution? for people are infamous for committing number one, i usually just say that im booked all the way till my flight departure. for people who are notorious number two committers, i just flat out say no. thanks, but no thanks. i dont want to pay an extra fee at the airport for going over the weight limit, and i definitely don't want your liquid gift spilling over all my clothes.

2008-07-30T03:00:00.001-04:00

so i decided to make a new one because i some how had messed up my old one.

but im still not able to update my blog as of yet because im still in hk. i mean...i can, i just don't want to yet. =D

but i've posted my japan pictures up in photos. (just some) just to appease you. enjoy!

July 4th

2008-07-01T22:12:00.000-04:00

it's fast approaching July 4th, and i'm still in asia.

i want to be back to celebrate and be American. i hate being here on our holiday and have people around me be ignorant about it.

i want to watch fireworks; i want to do bbq.

i really miss home now

2008-06-22T21:41:00.000-04:00

the bus driver for my bus this morning was wearing Ray Ban sunglasses. how cool is that?!

O_O

2008-06-20T02:18:00.000-04:00

if you cant read what her t-shirt says, then: "real girls eat meat"

i eat meat but i also do have friends who don't eat meat, but i still think they're real people.

2008-06-20T02:10:00.000-04:00

if ya'll haven't seen the latest [hottest bachelors] in people magazine, then you need to go get a copy. some of them are quite on the mark, but mario lopez, i have to say, has a pretty disgusting body.

i know he's a fitness buff and that's what they're supposed to look like, but in that two page spread of him in the

2008-06-20T02:03:00.000-04:00

so, most of you know that i am on vacation in asia, but lets be frank, im in hong kong.

i've ranted about hong kong before and the distastes that i have for it, so im not going to repeat it, but having been here for about three weeks now, i dont want to speak chinese anymore.

your rear end

2008-06-05T03:33:00.000-04:00

i went to shenzhen the other night for a nice massage [not really shenzhen...you have to take some suspicious looking car to some other ... state? --i dont know how to translate to english] but anyhoo, on my way down the escalators, i just happened to look over at the up escalator and saw this man holding his baby.

nothing special about that, but then i was like, why is he clamping some peaches by the baby's bottom? ... duh. they weren't juicy looking peaches, they WERE the baby's bottom.

if you've been to china, im sure you know what i'm talking about. there are these specially designed little tyke outfits that have a mini hole right on the kid's bottom for peepee convenience.

.......

really?? the kid was only about 5 months. he can't even sit up , hardly go to the bathroom on his own. and i assume it would be quite gross to just be lying in bed with your 5 month old son, who doesn't speak by the way, and all of a sudden he poops. and you can't get mad because you didn't put a freakin diaper on the kid and he doesn't talk. what's worse is if you're holding the kid in public and it poops on your arm!

talk about lack of hygiene. my goodness. forget convenience, just get the kid a diaper, and if you can't afford those, then use the cloth ones and just rewash them. THATS got to be better than leaving the kids rear end open for the world to see. poor kid.

2008-05-22T22:20:00.000-04:00

if ya'll haven't noticed by now, im taking short spurts of breaks on the blog. not because i have nothing to say, but because im on vacation, and you should be too.

its a bit frustrating actually because at home in the states, i have problems connecting to my phone carrier and occasionally my internet will suddenly disappear because i live in a forest. [not quite, but our neighborhood is surrounded by trees...good for privacy but sucks for connection.] so oddly enough, when im here on vacation at home in asia, i am once again surrounded by a mass of trees. its a good thing to an extent. i get to breath fresher air and my neighbors wont be able to see my through their high rise.

[but dude, life without some internet can be such a hassle. thank god my phone works here.]

i forgot how hot most parts of asia can be. i think its even worse when you open the windows for "fresh air" because all you'll get is bursts of hot air. flip flops, tank tops, and shorts dont quite cut it here especially with all that walking.

i hope you guys are all having fun wherever you are! and i'll be sure to update when i see some weird stuff here. so far its been okay. hehe

all-american girl

2008-05-15T00:06:00.000-04:00

i am chinese, but a hyphenated one at that. i relate to both my american culture and my chinese culture...i would like to say, evenly. but just recently, a friend shed some light on my fencing. she said: "chinese culture is your interest, but you live a white american" -- so true.

so what is american culture?? sports, beer, and hooters. cept i dont work at hooters, and beer is not my particular favorite alcoholic beverage, although i will tolerate it

here are my sports line up:

NFL - New England Patriots : number 84 Tyson DeVree [i have a thing for tight ends because i think Jason Witten from Dallas Cowboys is hot too]

MBL - Boston Red Sox : Pitcher Jon Lester

NHL - NY Rangers : Defenseman Bobby Sanguinetti

sorry. i dont like basketball

2008-05-12T22:50:00.000-04:00

I AM FINALLY FINISHED WITH FINALS. say that three times fast.

one of the perks of being an english major, is that you finish early [but i say with more work] and you get to sit around and watch your buddies suffer actual studying of math and science. then its like, SUCKERS.

however, do not think for one minute that we did not do our fair share of work. we have probably written more papers on more books than you have ever written for the entire year.

but yes, those of you who still do have finals...good luck, and sucks to be you.

2008-05-08T14:40:00.000-04:00

i was watching this chinese tv show, and one of the games is similar to charades, but since it is a chinese show, they have to say the clues in english without saying the word(s) in the answer.

so, jordan chan [who's english is horrible] was up, and the answer was ETHIOPIA.

and he says:

"some country --

very hungry --

--black guy!"

so funny

this was just one that he did that i thought was very funny, but all of his were funny [the black guy one is the third clue in the clip if you're looking]